dilemma.freak. how many decisions must i keep making. why is it when everything seems to be settled, new problems will arise. wth.
i really really really want to go idare. i want to go. we've put in so much effort and i don want to just back out and lose everything. but at the same i'm worried over the safety of the camp and everything. was talking to both erny and ah boy yest. both of them really made sense over the safety and yes safety is all of our priority. i still cannot believe that erny has backed out. ah boy was going mad in msn yest night. getting all worked up and stuff. but when he started to find info about the earthquakes and volcanoes, what he found out made sense too. he found a map of the active volcanoes in the whole of indonesia. then the nearest volcano to bintan is in sumatra. and he felt that the volcano have a small possibility of reaching bintan because it is covered by sumatra. then the earthquakes. since bintan is so near to singapore, if singapore felt it, bintan would too. somemore bintan is twice the size of singapore. and well. his decision was if he could get his money back, he'll withdraw. please tell me wad to do. i really dont want our efforts to go to waste, but at the same time i want to have fun knowing everything's safe. ugh.
anyway. i feel really sian over foc. i dunno why. mayb is i don really click with the people and there isn't that familiarity when discussing impt stuffs. i can see how much more we can commit to baoc if we quit foc. but well, at this junction, i just think we'll gonna make things worse. aiya.
all of a sudden. i feel like quitting everything and just going everyday to school to paint the banner for baoc and helping out for baoc. call me fickle minded.
