please save me.the year's beginning to start off with the MOST HORRIBLE start ever. or i have a hunch that this year's NOT gonna be my year. WTF. don try to console me. i need a place to rant.
lets count how many times i visited the doctor in the past one month. 4 TIMES. great. and its gonna be 5 soon. i need a doctor, RIGHT AWAY. i'm going to the clinic on monday. i seriously need help and i shall stop being stubborn.
wad happened? it's the worst thing that can happen to a person who loves singing. on the surface it appears that my voice has came back and recovered. but well all along i know myself that i can only talk. my voice is not well at all. i CANNOT, practically cannot singing "jia yin", if you understand, its fake voice in direct translation. its the head voice la actually, those really airy voice. and i cannot hit high notes. cannot stretch my voice. and the voice that comes out from my mouth sucks big time! can you imagine how pissed was i when i was actually practicing!? i sounded like a frog croaking! i got so tmd pissed that i stopped the karaoke and just stoned there with anger rushing all the way up to my head.
i complained to my dad. ah but wad can he do? only to ask me to go to the doctor soon. seriously im really afraid okay. the talentquest is in 3 pathetic short weeks. and there's so many things happening in this 3 weeks. where the hell am i going to find the time to rest my voice take care of it to prepare for the auditions? i can't even practice or choose a song i want to sing now! this is the worst thing that can be happening to a singer. PLEASE SAVE ME.
i hope this is gonna be the worst thing that can ever happen. no more please. please don let me lose my voice again. i cannot imagine wad will happen if i lose it again. i'll irritate the hell out of myself. i've never felt such lost before. God, please help me.
owells. i feel like singing yanzi's old songs like "ai qing zhen shu", "huai tian qi", "kai shi dong le" for the auditions. shall see what peter has to say tmr. he better not laugh at my voice. i'll KILL him if he does.
